WHAT THE HECK IN THE WORLD, AMANDA!?!
Why in the WORLD do I go to places that I am already aware I'm going to be uncomfortable.
(answer.. trying to be social and/or think i'll only stay a minute.. false..)
Yes, Amanda.. You absolutely dropped yourself in a house of people tonight with a bunch of people you dont know.. and co-workers... it was their house.
But as much as I really like my co-workers and I do consider them friends... I still squinch my eyes and tilt my head and add "friends---ish?" A year later and I'm just a loon. Besides the fact that their conversations returned to: can you guess? Sports and booze. Two things I show no interest in. And then! I was kinda cold, so I was doing the whole crossed arms, clenching jaw thing that I forget makes me look like I'm ticked.. I'm not..
Really nice people. I dont know why I can't speak. I'm not a people person. (..ish?) That's a false statement. I'm a mix of my parents. My mom is uber social. Friendly and chipper. My dad was a bit more reserved. Friendly, but kept to his smaller circle of friends. I can be friendly and annoyingly chipper, but really like to keep things smaller if I want to actually converse.
I kind of did that last night though.. at my own shindig. Ha. It was great! Good turn out and fun stuff.. But I just hit the point of being done. I don't know what to do with myself. So obviously this is a me thing...
(aaaahhhh.... amanda! unclench jaw! ouch) '
but hey.. all in all.. good day. ;)
No comments:
Post a Comment