yesterday when i was mad...

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i was really ticked yesterday. thinking about it now it seems so so trivial. the bus was late- by 30 minutes and made me miss my friends senior recital. it was raining. it was cold. and i'm trying to recover from whatever illness garbage i have right now. i wasn't mad at seattle for raining. or myself for dreadful planning.. a bit at the bus for being SO DRASTICALLY late... i was mad at the STUPID JERK who TOTALED MY CAR! it was at the root of my frustrations.

i'm honestly trying to be optimistic about the car issues. i'm grateful (said through gritted teeth) for the bus system and the cheap bus pass i have. in all actuality i have a way to get from point A to point B. Whether it be by bus or by my kind roommates who have vehicles. i'm glad to know i don't have a car payment any longer. that feels like SUCH a huge weight off, so the idea of getting another car and adding to it doesn't excite me at all. and i have a lot of 'what ifs'; maybe something really dreadful would have happened in my car. maybe this is all a blessing in disguise. maybe this is a lesson in patience and being willing to ask for help. *sigh* it could be all of these things.

damn my pride.