A decision has been made.

I went to the library.. 2 libraries actually and went a little crazy. Thankfully I had my friend Meghan with me to help carry out my heavy loads of books. Excessive? Possibly. But I suddenly had this inherent need to read poetry. Probably because Meghan was with me, who is an original hipster, poet and modern day vagabond. I'm not exaggerating. She shoved poets and books at me, and of course I got distracted by books myself, which concluded with me checking out 40 books from the Langley & Coupeville libraries. This didn't count my previous check outs already at home. So we divided them into sections.

Travel/Language, On Writing, Fiction, Fairy Tales, Non Fiction, Poetry, and Exploration. (as seen in photo 1. Photo 2 is a better list of what is currently available.)

So here's my thought as of this moment. I am currently jobless, a situation that I am attempting to rectify daily, I assure you. I have opted to use my time properly. I've noticed a theme in talks/church meetings; it has certainly been nudging.. it includes but is not limited to; my use of time, having a more Christ centered life, and being in control of my happiness. In testimony meeting last month I remember one gent getting up and talking about needing to be happy with the things we can control. Ah ha moment!! I can't dwell on things that other people do and/or stupid decisions they make? (empathy girl attack!! geah!) Doing that only makes me miserable. What fun is that? None fun. Or in another regard, I can do everything I can to find work; apply, interview, apply a million more times, but at some point it is out of my hands.

So, I am shedding my ever present black rain cloud and "woe is me" status for something I can control. I can control what I do with the time I have been allotted in this limbo/hiatus, which includes reading, exploring, learning. I can control the time I give myself to workout and kick my own trash in that regard, and what I put in my mouth. I can control my spirituality and the time I put into learning and seeking truth through my Savior. I can control the use of my talents and abilities. Guess what? I play the piano and violin. I am also making somewhat of an attempt to learn the guitar. Did you know? Yea, I'm kind of a "hide my light under a bushel" kind of gal, which I find incredibly irritating.

Bekki has reminded me that, really, never again will I have this opportunity. Make the best of it! Work, school, family will take over life at some point and honestly, I would like to look back at this time with fondness. To get involved with cool stuff on the island. I went to a poetry reading/discussion panel friday night and it was awe-some! Partially to have something to do, and to be surrounded by people. So nice! I also went to Hot Topic and had this fantastic conversation with the cashier about a mutual love of Bayside. I love these random moments.

So- up and coming for the month of April:

-The Classic Crime show this weekend. That's right. And I am so pumped/stoked/excited.. If you haven't gone to a show with me, it's truly me in happiest form. You've no idea what joy emanates from my person at these things, and it can't be described. Possibly photographed..

-Megan, my sister in law, is coming out for a week, and I am super duper stoked to see her.

-Utah, for Jackie's wedding. I am ever planning those 4 days I'll be there. Magic, I tell you. Magic.

As for this weekend.. General Conference. Seriously, such a highlight of life. I've already downloaded Saturday sessions podcast from itunes. I love that it happens every 6 months. I love that there's always something screaming my name. In Isbell tradition, we went out to eat in between sessions Saturday. Thankfully not Golden Corral. Today we had some ladies over, and Stan made a feast. Seriously. And finished "Flipped."

I've got things to do, books to read.

Over and out.