I have gotten a lot of support from friends and family about my decision to move to Washington. In my mind, Seattle is a cooler place to visit than Utah, so it's partially a; "hey, I'm moving and you should come visit me in this really cool city." My only problem with the support I have received is that I have this slight concern that there are some that might be telling me that this is a SWELL idea, when thinking, maybe not so much. (This has happened to me before, and what is disastrous is that I want input on this matter. Really. I do. The good, the bad, the ugly..)
No. It's not such an abyss. Just possibility and new adventure I suppose. It's the next step into something. But I guess I keep hoping that someone will give me a reason to stay. I really good reason. I have a hard time finding work, and I am DONE with Michaels. I need... something.
Last night we had our Thirsty Thursday event, and quite a few of my friends asked if I REALLY needed to move. {It made me think today that opting to move and having my friends sad by my leaving was like getting a sneak peek of my funeral.. Morbid and crazy? Yes, but it sure makes me feel special.} And I realized once again that I do this ridiculous thing, it seems ALL THE TIME. I will be some place for an extended period and it's all strange and new and potentially horrible, I subconsciously (your subCONscious) don't start liking the place or doing cool stuff till towards the end because I hit a point of, "I don't care I'm moving" (or it's the end of the semester). Then I am suddenly freaking social and I am sad to leave the place & the people. WTQ, Amanda... W-T-Q!
I have to remind myself that NOTHING is set in stone. It's not. I'd be living with my Mom & Stan in WA till I found a place and work. And Kjirst hasn't made her plane ticket yet. (She's driving with me and then flying back). I'm not sure why I'm freaking. It's what I do, I guess.
Breathe.. just breathe.
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If you made the decision once, and got a confirmation, then it's a good thing. Granted, I'd much rather you move to New England, but Washington is awesome and I would totally live there too.
We ended up moving to an abyss and have met amazing and great people. We just decided that since it was a whole new start that we could just put our anti-social selves out there and not let people know how shy we are and we made some amazing friends right away. However, tomorrow night we are going to a Christmas party where there will be a lot of people we don't know, and we've got a pact that we can't be anti-social or comfortable and we'll try to put ourselves out there and meet new people. But you can seriously trick people into thinking you are way outgoing. And throwing parties right away is a great way to start things out on a good foot, right?
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